and also a place for me to sit down , look back and reflect back on life . on how much life then changed . how much i have changed and how much people have changed . realizing how muched i've missed out on and only to realize now , that it's time for me move on . trying to forget about the past was and probaly one of the most hardest thing ... well , in anybody's life really . whether it's for good or for bad . but , yeah as i'm sitting here on this bench now , as now ( a kind of , ... okay a very old lady . ) i realize that it was time for me to move on and forget about the past . it was all right though . i still think about every now and then . but , now lately all i think about now is looking forward to the future . and as for the past i still think about the good memories we've had , but at the same time i try to forget about it at the same time cause of not only the bad memories , but also the painful memories of me having good times , so yeah , like i said early in this story and sitting here not only looking at the little kids running or playing in the park , or just me simply feeding the piegons , or birds in general , i'm just ready to move on away from you . and just start looking forward to the future . and who's know's ? maybe there will be more great meomries and also sadly more bad and painful memories . but like i've said i'm ready to move on face them .